Baby Steps
Today I am finally able to sit back at my computer. For the last 2 days, I endured the most dreaded thing for a mom to face -- getting the flu. It was a good one! My husband (who is a truck driver), had actually taken over a week off, but the day he went back to work, I got sick! What a nightmare! My 3 year old tried to help with her sister (17 mos.), but mostly I still had to do all the mom stuff -- such as changing diapers, which isn't my strong point at the best of times! Anyway, I survived, and so far no one else has been struck down, so hopefully we're in the clear.
I had to take Morgan to her nursery school open house tonight. I am having mixed feelings about her going. The only reason I signed her up at 3 years old, is because I am afraid she is getting to "clingy" to me. It has gotten so bad that I can't even come downstairs to put laundry in without her panicking and thinking I have left. I can't go downtown without her, I can't leave her anywhere. So, I thought she needed to have a chance to be with other kids, and learn how to interact with other people besides me. But, of course, I think I'm having just as hard of a time with the whole thing! I am so nervous! I want her to be O.K., but I still wish she wasn't big enough to go yet. I know that the day I drop her off and walk out the door, with her crying in the background -- I think my heart will just shatter! I guess it is just what us moms have to deal with -- your instinct tells you to protect them, and not let them suffer, but you know that you have to let them go through this on their own. Why didn't anyone tell me that being a mom was going to be such a heart wrenching job sometimes!
I'm sure we'll be alright; I'll let you know. It doesn't actually start until the 19th, so I still have my baby for a few more days!
posted by Marie & Lisa @ 9:50 PM
1 Comments:
You aren't hurting your daughter by letting her go away from you for a couple of hours twice a week. Rather, you will be helping her. You may think you are forcing her to do something awful, but the truth is she needs some kid time too - just like we need some mom time once in awhile. You have been lucky to spend as much time with her as you have. I had to go back to work when my children were 6 months old and I always had the feeling of guilt - like someone else was actually raising my children. My children are now older and I find they still like their mommy time. So even though Morgan may be going to Nursery School, you will still have lots of mommy and Morgan time to come. Plus, now maybe we can have a peaceful cup of coffee. ha ha ha
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