Choices
I haven't posted anything for a couple of days now, I have been so busy. I'm sure alot of people think that because I am home all day, I should be able to get more done. Well, I don't know, I think I have some serious time management problems! I feel like I never seem to get anything done (ie. housework, yardwork, etc.), and yet I can't seem to figure out where my time is going! Anyway, that isn't really what I wanted to talk about today (maybe the fact that I tend to get distracted easily could have something to do with my time management issues).
Yesterday, I was going through some old papers and trying to decide what I could throw out. I came across all my paperwork from when I applied and was accepted into the nursing program that I took. I can't really explain how it made me feel to look at all that stuff again. It was only 6 years ago, so it still feels pretty fresh. Anyway, I just remembered how excited I felt when I was accepted, and then when I started classes. It was kind of hard to look at, because it made me feel a little sad. I don't regret staying at home with my kids, but sometimes I wonder what would have been if I had made other choices. I know alot of people really questioned my decision when I decided not to go back to work. No one could ever know how hard that decision was for me. I had wanted to be a nurse my whole life, and I was so proud when I graduated. I know my mom and dad were too, and all the others in my life. I have often wondered if I have let them down for not continuing in my career. I never really had the chance to actually practice for very long before I became pregnant, so I know alot of people thought that I had wasted my time by going to school. I don't think I did. I really enjoyed it, and I proved to myself that I could do it. I guess at the end of the day, that is who we really have to make happy - ourselves. It's easier said than done sometimes though! I am reading a book right now that really puts things into perspective about the simple things in life. I find sometimes when I am feeling bogged down with everything going on in my life, if I read a motivational book it really helps to lift me up. Anyway, this book is great! It is called "Life's Greatest Lessons: 20 Things That Matter" by Hal Urban. It is just so true! It basically talks about the choices we make, and how we can decide how we live. I have put a link on the left hand side of this page if you want to check it out. It's a good book for anyone who wants to really find what is important in their lives.
posted by Marie & Lisa @ 1:46 PM
1 Comments:
Hi there Marie. Just reading your postings and this one really made me think. I hope you realize how proud you should be having accomplished your LPN and yet having chosen to give it up to stay home with your girls. Some people would wonder certainly about your decision when looking at the issue of income versus no income - especially on a nurses salary. I have to admit, at the time of your decision even I wondered if you would have regrets. But life is not all about the money. I had to make that decision when I left the spa to work here in town so that I could be closer to home for my son. Although he is still in daycare during the day, I just hated being away from him and still do. But that fact that I am at least here in town in case he needs me made a big impact on my decision to bring home a smaller paycheck. So although I still work during the day, I do in my own way understand your decision to stay at home and pass the opportunity to use your nursing degree for the sake of raising two beautiful little girls. I'm very proud of you and I hope you remember just how much your family and friends believe in you on those days that you are frustrated with some others views on the "stay-at-home" issue.
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